On the first of August I'm due to have a total Hysterectomy Cervix, , Ovaries, Fallopion Tubes, Womb etc. They wanted to do it sooner, this month but I didn't feel it was a good idea with work etc.
I'm feeling kinda numb about it all or maybe just in denial, I'm not sure.
I'm single, never had children. Each day I wake I battle with past abuse the main reason for the hysterectomy. the main reason for me being childless.
I live alone apart from my animals which thankfully keep me going.
sorry maybe I shouldnt be writting all this stuff?
when u were in hospital were you aware of what was going on around you? where you treated with respect, dignity, allowed to do as much for yourself as you could, eg given privacy to wash? I have read that they give you a catheter, how bad is that etc?
This is a place to vent, share how you are feeling, what you are experiencing etc - so please no apologies - there isn't an emotion or a question that we ourselves haven't experienced.
Have you spoken with your surgeon about alternative methods? You mentioned abuse but did not mention the exact reason for the hyst. If it is because of fibroids then there are alternatives that may work for you. If you have severe Endo then chances of pregnancy for you are slim to none - we had a hysterspotter who was in the same position as yourself and she found a site which was posted in the links section - she was in a great deal of pain from the endo, and although the inability to ever conceive really affected her, she felt confident that she did the right thing for her when the doctor told her she would not have been able to conceive because of the severe endo. No one can make this choice for you - it is one you have to feel comfortable with.
Remember that our body parts do not make us the women we are - our minds and our souls and our hearts make us who we are - and missinga body part or two won't change who you are.
Since you are having a complete hysterectomy - have you discussed taking HRT's (hormone replacement therapy) with your doctor.
As for noticing whats going on around you - it depends on how much morphine you get - lol - in my case I had a massive gallbladder attack following surgery and was pumping in morphine faster than my body could handle and I was stoned out of my mind for 2 days - if it weren't for the gallbladder pain I dont think I would even have used the morphine pump.
As for the catheter - you don't even notice it - as for bathing - the first couple of days they do give you a sponge bath but if you don't want them to do your pericare (personal bathing) I'm sure if you ask they will allow you to do it yourself. I was able to take a shower on day 3 - but NO BATHS - you should not take a bath until the doctor says you can - my doctor said no baths until week 4 - partially because pulling yourself out of the tub can be strenuous on your abdomen but partially because of the incision.
Will have to finish this later sorry - just got hit with a thunderstorm.
Be blessed and be a blessing!
_____________________________________ TAH - March 17, 2003 - Reason for TAH: field of fibroids, severe and frequent periods, anemia, recurrent dysplasia!