After 8 months, as I look back, emotinally I am not much further that I was all those months ago. I still long to hold a newborn baby in my arms, knowing it is my baby! I struggle with this daily. I am looking at all the positives, and I am not sure I will ever feel complete if I do not at least adopt a baby someday. I still sit and cry about this sometimes. I just needed to vent this here! Thanks for listening.
;D Well I found a way to hold a new baby in my arms and avoid bottle feedings and diapers ;D I bought me a papillon and even bought her a pouch to carry her like a baby ;D
That was only part of my message not sure what happened the first time around but I had said:
I think that the not being able to conceive pain is a result of the fact that we were created to procreate and when that ability is gone there is a void - regardless of our age at the time of our hysterectomy. My ds calls my puppy my midlife crisis - but I must say, she has filled a void i didn't even realize existed.
I think for me, I had been asked to obtain custody of a little girl shortly after my hysterectomy so I hadn't been given anytime to really feel the void - unfortunately, I can't afford t pay the legal fees - my lawyer wants a $2000. retainer, and I just don't have that kind of money. So I am going to have to figure out how I can get custody without using a lawyer. Please keep this in prayer for me
Well now that I wrote what I had written - I had hit send prematurely and modified - but the first modification never appeared - so this is the gyst of what I wrote in that ;D
Last Edit: Oct 21, 2003 11:58:40 GMT -5 by Francina
Be blessed and be a blessing!
_____________________________________ TAH - March 17, 2003 - Reason for TAH: field of fibroids, severe and frequent periods, anemia, recurrent dysplasia!
i can understand that feeling all to well. even tho i was blessed i still can not get over the feeling that i will never have another child. it has been the one thing that has bothered me all this time. now that i am comming up on a year i will say it has gotten better but still painful. i guess we should still be thankful that we have our lifes even without kids at least we are here.