Post by tammidarlin on Oct 17, 2003 18:26:22 GMT -5
Well hello and long time no see! (or chat)
I am 7.5 months post op and thought I'd check in, being that I sort of went awol about 5 months ago. To those who know me...I am so sorry. After the year I had prior to my surgery and the recovery after...I suppose I just got to a point when (after the relief of finding no cancer) I just couldn't talk about it, hear about it, or think about it for awhile. Life was whirling out of control, I was helping take care of my grandmother (who has now passed), kids out of school for the summer...and once again life was back to normal. AKA...no time for me. LOL! Somehow I think many of you can relate.
Anyways...Part of the need to remove myself from the "World of Hyster" (though in no way denial) was simply that I really didn't feel well. Part of me thought it might be that talking about every little feeling was actually starting to slow my recovery. I was a TAH/LSO due to massive tumor, huge cyst, adenomyosis, endometriosis, adhesions, blah blah blah.... For awhile I felt a bit better. The pain of surgery easing, though my incision scar is still irritable and numb at the same time. After a few months I realized I DON'T feel fine. I still cramp like I am on my period (though I love not having THAT...lol), ovulation of the remaining ovary is OMG awful, (worse than it ever was), I still have pain where my left ovary used to be, I either sleep like the dead or I am an insomniac. And I have enough personalities to put on an entire Broadway production all by myself! (moods that is) And the thought of sex makes me queasy...literally. Poor hubby thinks it must be him...like I don't find him attractive. Sometimes I am mentally in the mood, but my body feels nothing unless it's queasy. On the rare occassion my body THINKS it's in the mood, my mind (or life) is busy elsewhere.
I came here today to read posts and see if it was just me. I saw the HERS charts....and geez....I am like the poster child for some dumb cause like "Sister's against Hyster's" ....lmao....wow! Has anyone else felt a bit dismayed or even depressed at the changes in themselves since surgery? Don't get me wrong, I have no regrets for the choice I made. Physical and medical reasons made it the wisest and best choice over all. I knew and understood the possible adverse effects. I just didn't think I'd experience so many of them, as often, or as long, or as intensely, as I have. For goodness sakes not a day goes by when my breasts don't ache like they are bruised all over. I am not taking HRT...just natural supplements.
Didn't mean to vent. Just figured if I spilled it out rather than one comment per post, it would save time and space. LOL. Feel free to respond to any/everything.
To Fran, Swift, Sable, Jana, & Deed....missed ya, luv ya, and big bear huuuuuggggsss!
Tammi
I am 7.5 months post op and thought I'd check in, being that I sort of went awol about 5 months ago. To those who know me...I am so sorry. After the year I had prior to my surgery and the recovery after...I suppose I just got to a point when (after the relief of finding no cancer) I just couldn't talk about it, hear about it, or think about it for awhile. Life was whirling out of control, I was helping take care of my grandmother (who has now passed), kids out of school for the summer...and once again life was back to normal. AKA...no time for me. LOL! Somehow I think many of you can relate.
Anyways...Part of the need to remove myself from the "World of Hyster" (though in no way denial) was simply that I really didn't feel well. Part of me thought it might be that talking about every little feeling was actually starting to slow my recovery. I was a TAH/LSO due to massive tumor, huge cyst, adenomyosis, endometriosis, adhesions, blah blah blah.... For awhile I felt a bit better. The pain of surgery easing, though my incision scar is still irritable and numb at the same time. After a few months I realized I DON'T feel fine. I still cramp like I am on my period (though I love not having THAT...lol), ovulation of the remaining ovary is OMG awful, (worse than it ever was), I still have pain where my left ovary used to be, I either sleep like the dead or I am an insomniac. And I have enough personalities to put on an entire Broadway production all by myself! (moods that is) And the thought of sex makes me queasy...literally. Poor hubby thinks it must be him...like I don't find him attractive. Sometimes I am mentally in the mood, but my body feels nothing unless it's queasy. On the rare occassion my body THINKS it's in the mood, my mind (or life) is busy elsewhere.
I came here today to read posts and see if it was just me. I saw the HERS charts....and geez....I am like the poster child for some dumb cause like "Sister's against Hyster's" ....lmao....wow! Has anyone else felt a bit dismayed or even depressed at the changes in themselves since surgery? Don't get me wrong, I have no regrets for the choice I made. Physical and medical reasons made it the wisest and best choice over all. I knew and understood the possible adverse effects. I just didn't think I'd experience so many of them, as often, or as long, or as intensely, as I have. For goodness sakes not a day goes by when my breasts don't ache like they are bruised all over. I am not taking HRT...just natural supplements.
Didn't mean to vent. Just figured if I spilled it out rather than one comment per post, it would save time and space. LOL. Feel free to respond to any/everything.
To Fran, Swift, Sable, Jana, & Deed....missed ya, luv ya, and big bear huuuuuggggsss!
Tammi